Where is my appetite - I finally ordered Benecalorie

My appetite currently ceases to exist. Lately all I eat is Ramen Noddles which 290 calories, clearly not enough to maintain my weight.  I eat that for breakfast and sometimes lunch and then for dinner sometimes I have a normal dinner with rice and some sort of meat.  Or for dinner I have 2 Nutella sandwiches.  Yesterday I saw 139 on the scale and I thought to myself its time for me to order Benecalorie.  I never want to wait again till I lose 20lbs to do something about it.  I have been thinking how perfect it would be to pour some Benecalorie into my soup or oatmeal or milk....basically anything and get an extra 300 calories added to anything I eat.   Especially since I really need it right now.  I have been trying so hard to save and spend absolutely no money on anything.  But this will be worth it in the long run.  As soon as it comes in I will document how it works, so you guys will be the first to know how my body reacts to it.  I can't imagine it not working.