Where is my appetite - I finally ordered Benecalorie

My appetite currently ceases to exist. Lately all I eat is Ramen Noddles which 290 calories, clearly not enough to maintain my weight.  I eat that for breakfast and sometimes lunch and then for dinner sometimes I have a normal dinner with rice and some sort of meat.  Or for dinner I have 2 Nutella sandwiches.  Yesterday I saw 139 on the scale and I thought to myself its time for me to order Benecalorie.  I never want to wait again till I lose 20lbs to do something about it.  I have been thinking how perfect it would be to pour some Benecalorie into my soup or oatmeal or milk....basically anything and get an extra 300 calories added to anything I eat.   Especially since I really need it right now.  I have been trying so hard to save and spend absolutely no money on anything.  But this will be worth it in the long run.  As soon as it comes in I will document how it works, so you guys will be the first to know how my body reacts to it.  I can't imagine it not working.

I want to try Benecalorie -- Currently 140-141

 These are the most recent pics of me, taken over a week ago:

WHEN I HAVE NO APPETITE AT ALL, I JUST FORCE DOWN SOME SOUP

So I didn't weigh myself for probably 2 weeks, something I never do.  I typically weigh myself every other day atleast (if not way more) in order to stay ontop of things.  But my battery in my scale died and I just kept forgetting when I was out to buy another.  Anyways, I finally bought a battery yesterday and weighed myself, and to my delight I am still maintaining.  I was 140-141 yesterday and today.  Now that is on the lower end of my goal, no type of cushion but I am still happy.  Lately I have been stressing like crazy.  One day I had a large box of my fav pizza and my fav Thai dish (Pad Thai) on the counter and I literally couldn't get myself to eat either.  Yes it was that bad :(  I ate chicken and cheddar Campbell's soup that day, and I had to force it done too.  So that's the reason why I am surprised that I am still maintaining some how.  I am still stressing a bit but def not as much as before.  I have my appetite back finally and ate the box of pizza and pad Thai.  But my appetite is still not where I want it to be. 



I CAN'T WAIT TO TRY BENECALORIE

The next thing I plan to try is Benecalorie which I think is around $36.  That is a bit pricey for me especially because right now I am saving for a big purchase, something that I really really want.  For now I am not spending any money on anything, unless its absolutely necessary.  So I am going to have to put Benecalorie on hold for a couple more weeks.  But I am excited to try it and document how well it either works or doesn't work.  I am almost certain it will work.  Here is a link to the website to where it can be purchased: http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=204694&catid=184321&aid=337953&aparam=benecalorie_calorie_and_&CAWELAID=266080762    I was thinking the other day when all I could force down was some soup how perfect that product would have been, I could have added over 300 calories to that soup with Benecalorie!!!!!!!



DO ANY OF YOU BEAUTIES HAVE AN EXPERIENCES WITH BENECALORIE THAT YOU CAN TELL ME ABOUT???

Update -- New Weight Goals -- 140-148 -- Shakes/Smoothies

Since my last update I have stayed at goal weight of 140 or above.  Its an everyday struggle.  Sometimes I am 148, sometimes I am 140, other times I am 145.  It just depends on the week, my level of stress, how busy I am, ect.  My goal has been not to let myself drop below 140.  Sometimes I pay absolutely no attention to my weight, have an awesome appetite, and gain weight out of no where.  Other times I am stressed or busy or have an upset stomach from eating too much diary (yes I am lactose intolerant but I still eat diary, just no straight up milk).......and will lose 4-6lbs in like a matter of days.  The great thing is lately I can put it on just as fast as I can lose it.  So staying in the 140-148 range hasn't been an issue.  I am pretty sure I could drop below 140 but gaining beyond 148 does not seem like it will happen any time soon....at least not this year.  But I am happy in the range that I am in. 

When I am between 140-142 is usually the time I know I need to start back up drinking my shakes on a more regular and consistant basis or blend my own shakes.  But I not gonna lie I have been slacking on my shake regimen which I have been doing for so many years now pretty consistantly.  So many nights lately I go to bed without even drinking one shake, no desert, and no big meal and that is so uncharacteristic of me.....I used to always have to have a full stomach to even feel ready for bed.  There are times I only eat one meal a day......but some how still maintaining my 140 or above.  For instance today all I had were pancakes for dinner and one CVS Liquid nutritional supplement......no breakfast or lunch :/

I just hope me slacking does not catch up to me, and I end up losing a ton of weight very fast.  I have been wanting to show yall the shakes I make when I get down to 140 that help me pick back up to 144 very quickly but I just haven't had the time to make the video.  Its simple and easy and maybe already something you have already tried.  But I have to show yall soon because I have blended a variety of shakes with a variety of ingredients but I have finally found the one that works really well with my body when it comes to putting back on a couple of pounds.

Huge Regret.... Please Read

Seeing someone ask if I am pregnant really blew my mind.  Why would I do a video about being so happy about gaining weight, if I were preg????  If I were preg, I would do a video about being a happy expectant mom.  But anyho.......

I finally figured out how to comment back to you loves, I couldn't before because of my "cookie" setting on my laptop

I am really surprised at some of the comments on my video because I really do not think I look much different then I did in my 138-140 lb video.  I do not think I look unhealthy, and I sure do not think I look preg. 

But you are probably wondering what my huge regret is.......it is having ever talked about the "PILLS".  Of course I felt it was my duty to be honest about my step to take the pills, but at the same time I did not realize that if I talked about them, especially talked about them working I would essentially be promoting the use of these pills to thousands of people.  And that was not my intent, especially because they are prescription pills................and I am clearly not a Dr.  Yes they worked wonders for me in a matter of just a day I started seeing a difference but if I had put more thought into the decision to use them I would not have.  I have had no side effects no problems but.................taking pills unnecessarily just to gain weight now that I think about it is just dumb.  On top of that telling all my viewers how good they work, and promoting them unintentionally, was something I truly never wanted to do.  Which is why many times I just call them pills and do not refer to them by there actual name.  That is also why I have never posted the link to where to buy them on my blog or on any of my videos.  I used to give out the link to where I bought them if someone inboxed me.  But I can no longer do that because it just bothers my conscious because I have no idea who is on the other side of the computer, who I am giving this link to, and what there potential reaction could be to using these pills.  I do not want that burden anymore...............SO I WILL NO LONGER BE GIVING OUT THE LINK TO WHERE I BOUGHT THEM, NOR WILL I MENTION THEM BY NAME, NOR WILL THEY BE DISCUSSED EVER AGAIN BY ME.  AS YOU ALREADY KNOW I STOPPED TAKING THEM BACK IN AUGUST........................SO THE PILL PHASE IS OVER FOR ME, UNLESS MY DOCTOR GIVES THEM TO ME :)

I hope you loves can understand where I am coming from.  I love yall and can't bear the burden of someone's body reacting negatively by using pills that were not prescribed to them because Keke said they worked.  You feel me?????

Love yall lots!!!!!!

Am I still taking Ciplactin

NO, I AM NO LONGER TAKING IT, AND HAVE NOT TAKEN IT SINCE I REACHED MY GOAL WEIGHT. AS YALL KNOW I HAVE BEEN THIS WEIGHT BEFORE....GAIN IT NATURALLY AND HAVE MAINTAINED THIS WEIGHT BEFORE NATURALLY WITHOUT THE USE OF PILLS. SO ESSENTIALLY I DID NOT NEED THEM BUT I WANTED SOMETHING TO JUMP START THE WEIGHT GAIN, AND I WANTED IT FAST, I WAS IN A RUT AT THE TIME, FRUSTRATED, AND HAD ALWAYS WANTED TO TRY THOSE PILLS. BUT SINCE THEY ARE PILLS AND I AM AT A DECENT WEIGHT FOR MY HEIGHT I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE SOMETHING THAT IS UNNECESSARY WHEN I KNOW I CAN DO IT FROM HERE ON OUT ON MY OWN :)

Right now I am still 139-142 lbs
It would still be nice to one day be 150-160 lbs but right now I am not trying hard for that, I am mostly just maintaining or gaining 1-2lbs here and there.  But if I am able to get to 150 trust I will update about it, and it will be naturally.  So stay toned.  Love yall lots.

- Keke

How to open up your appetite and eating fast

FORCE YOURSELF TO EAT

I know of no simple or easy way of opening up my appetite that does not require work or simply doing things that I really don't want to have to do.  No one wants to force themselves to eat, and trust I do not want to either.  But when you want something bad enough you do what you have to do, when you are motivated and strong willed, know the body type you are striving for, you will put the work in to get it!!!!! FORCE YOURSELF TO EAT    Yes this is the only way to naturally open up your appetite that I know of.  It is not easy but it pays off.  What I do know is the best foods to force down when you really aren't all that hungry.  I know the best foods to force down in addition to the foods you have already eaten for the day in order to add in those extra calories before bed.  I would never go and force myself to eat a plate full of soul food if I am not hungry, or do not have an appetite, that would just cause me to gag if not throw up.  Or I would probably just sit there chewing for ages and never beable to swallow it.  If you are going to force foods down choose soft foods that are either of a liquid or super soft consistency so that you only have to chew once or twice then swallow.  When I have no appetite or am overly emotional and unable to eat but know I need to in order to maintain my weight I eat eggs, oatmeal, soups, sandwiches, mashed or baked potatoes, drink lots of juices, shakes/smoothies, sodas, and sweet tea.  And of course my CVS liquid nutritional supplements.  Simply choose which ever liquid or soft foods you want to force down in addition to what you normally eat each day, force those extra calories down, and do this every day for 2 weeks to a month and your body will get used to the extra calories.  Once your body gets used to getting in and metabolising those extra calories your body will then need/want those extra calories.  So before you know it, you will no longer be forcing yourself to eat, you will actually have a larger appetite in order to get in those extra calories that your body got used to receiving.  You will likely just start craving more foods :)  Forcing foods sucks trust I know but it works. 

EAT FAST

 Another thing that I do and have been doing for the past 2 years ever since I gained weight the very first time is, I eat with serving utensil (for example serving spoons and serving forks).

Serving spoon and fork on left, regular spoon and fork on right

 Serving forks and spoons are significantly larger then normal spoons and forks.  So I am able to fit more food in my mouth, so I am able to eat faster.  People who are over weight are known to be fast eaters.  The faster you eat the longer it takes for your brain to get the signal that you are full.  If you sit there and eat slow, take small bites of food, you will be half way through your meal and you will already feel full.  But if you take large bites, and eat faster you will be done with your meal by the time the "I feel full" signal reaches to your brain, which is the signal/senstation that normally stops us from finishing our meals.  The goal is to eat as much as you can as fast as you can before the "I FEEL FULL" signal travels to your brain, thus preventing you from eating any more. I hope this is helpful.

Love yall lots!!!

-Keke

You do not need MEAT to gain weight

So I realized my latest video might be a bit misleading if you have not watched my videos and journey from the beginning.  When I listed and talked about what I have been eating lately to maintain my weight you probably just saw a ton of meats like beef, pork, ect. all over the place.  I am not eating these types of food to gain or maintain my weight I am simply eating what I am craving.  I have always been this way, I eat what I have a strong craving for at the moment.  I usually have long periods of time where I crave and eat the same things over and over again. BUT when I gained 20lbs in 2 months in the winter of 2009 I did it completely by eating mostly grains and nothing else, very rarely did I eat meat because I just was not craving it.  I ate mostly peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, peanut butter honey and banana sandwiches, fettuccini alfredo and other meals containing noddles and thick rich sauces, loaded baked and mashed potatoes, soups, cereals, oatmeal, lots or soda and liquid nutritional supplements!!!!!!  So please do not believe that if you are not a meat eater that gaining weight is impossible because it is not, just eat what you like and eat alot of it.  Make daily food diaries, count your calories, and make sure you are getting in an extra 500-1000 calories a day then you normaly would. 

- Keke